My fire for dance is fading...

Not because I don't LOVE dancesport anymore.
It's just that the people in dance are not the same anymore.
I really dont understand why people NEED to change just cuz they have more power and authority over others.
I like the status that we had when I first joined dance.
why do i have to be pissed over decisions that I have no idea why it affects me so much?
I do not NOT like the people in the committee.
its just they way they operate that irritates.
why is it that they are not sure of everything.
why is it that every time i ask for more details they will reply, "i have no idea too"?
then who can i ask to get answers to my doubts???
why is it that the things that i should know gets to me most of the time at the very last min.
and that they update us via means of e-mail mostly?
and when we get info last min, our other plans gets affected??
is it because that we are the only minor few that are not in the committee that we missed out a lot of things that we should be ABLE to know asap??
why cant they just make announcements as well as send e-mails??
it's not like we only meet once in a blue moon or smt.
we meet like THREE times a week!!!
and since committee meeting is on wednesday, why can't they inform us of the club update on thursday?
and I understand formation training is impt for performance, and that it is impt for us to attend.
but what if we have smt on that has nth to do with school and stuff?
why cant work be a reason to miss formation training?
not everyone is as rich. is it wrong to work or attend other things.
why must dancesport be everything in our life?
why can't it be just a passion and part of our life?
does it means that putting all efforts into dancesport and causing it to affect our studies and life is good?
why can't it be a free and easy thing that allows us to enjoy dancing?
shoulden it be the case?? to fully feel that joy of dancesport and not stressing over it?

i'm suppose to go for extra dancesport lesson today which i'm suppose to pay.
at the last min i have smt impt to do which disable me to attend.
i informed the in charge a few hours b4 the lesson that begins at 3 plus and i was being told at 4 plus that i still have to pay cuz the association has already paid for me.
but it just doesn't make sense to pay for a lesson which i did not attend.
and the reply was that nvm if i'm still against the whole thing... then the club will fork out my share.
so what was i suppose to reply??
"oh, its okey. i shall just pay." OR, "okey. thank you? :)"?
first off, i'm not against anyone or anything.
this is just another example that they don't find out things properly.
how am i suppose to know that the course fee has already been paid and that i still have to pay even if i don't attend when they themselves also only found out after they went there.
i'm sure these info could be found out b4 the lesson even started.
i'm just frustrated with why it is affecting so much. causing me to not feel like going for dance.
and i mean NOT GOING FOR DANCE. and not DON'T FEEL LIKE DANCING.

DISCLAIMER: THE ABOVE ARTICLE IS PURELY MY OWN THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS. GET LOST IF U DON'T AGREE WITH ME CUZ THIS IS MY BLOG AND U CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT I POST. I'M NOT AGAINST ANYONE OR ANYTHING.
I JUST HOPE THAT I CAN HAVE THE COURAGE TO DO SOMETHING TO IMPROVE THE CLUB AND TO REGAIN THE PASSION AND MOTIVATION THAT I HAVE TO CONTINUE DANCING AND TO GO FOR DANCE ACTIVITIES!