lost - i'm trying to find my way.

been looking at ppl's blog and have been thinking bout some stuff.

1. i haven been going to church lately. its like i dont event have the motivation to wake up to go for cell meeting. even when i go for cell meeting, i would find all ways to not go for service at PLMGSS. or rather i'm just lazy to travel there. or maybe that's just my excuse. i cant feel that even little passion that i once had anymore. i feel really bad. i know that God will always be there for me but i just dont bother to go look for Him. i think it's time that i put in some effort to find Him back into me.

2. i'm i really in the right course?? is it smt that i would be willing to commit myself to in the future. i didden really plan to come into this course. it was just the last solution to get me out of a JC that i didden want to be in. i'm having fun in poly thou. but its just that is it really what's meant for me? it is really what i wanted? or is it just. idn... i need to find some ans.

3. its not a secret that i dont have a bf yet. its common in PL that most of us dont have our first love yet. but in poly, there are ppl around me with more than one EX already. first love sound tempting, but i'm afraid to face stuff bout bgr. i dont dare to think bout it even. i dont know what to expect. but it would be fun to have a eye-candy in school. as a motivation for me to go school. (: haha. its better if i keep a dist from bgr. for now i think.

4. lots of things to do but with so little time. stage model to complete. site visit to go to. racial harmony event stuff to settle. and an exhibition stall to design. time is running up but i still want to play CS. haha. this is not a serious topic. its just that we cant seems to concentrate to complete it asap. we must have more "endurance" or is there a better word to use? anyway, need to buck up already before more starts piling up. (: